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Friday, August 7, 2009
TEAR DROPS
Hey peepos!
Sorry i've nt been updating my blog..
i'm in a bad mood lah & more problems are apearing AGAIN.. then tear drops keep droping..
well on Tuesday we had our prelim oral, after that i asked [insert name here] for something lah..
AARRHH!! FORGET IT!! I'M NOT TELLING THE STORY..
THEN on Wednesday.. the boy i have feelings for.. likes my bestfriend..
i really wanted to cry but i know my bestfriend will be angry if i cry just because of tht..
so i tried to keep all the tear drops 1st..
then when i came back home all the tears came out..
this was my mistake..
i already moved on without him in my life but when he told me that he also still have feelings for.. my emotions for him came back too.. but after a few days later.. no more.. we went through our separate ways..
i don't think we're still friends.. now.. we are like ghost infront of each other..
we're not talking / looking / smiling / being friends with each other any more..
then on thursday.. Same thing happen..
then after school i had to talk to Rauff and Fadhilah on the phone.. like a messager but i'd talk to rauff longer..
had to talk to him abt Huda [Not the ex yps].. and OMG,, so many promises i need to do..
then on friday..
we wore red & white clothes but me & fadhilah need to wear uniform 1st because we were going to do flag raising...
after the celebration..
me, nina & Hidayah were planning to go to Yishun Park..but unfortunatly nina invited amir.. but he said
"""If cassandra go.. i won't go..
If cassandra won't go.. i will go """
i was so pissed off siol..
Did i do anything wrong? i didnt right..WTF!
so i told hidayah & nina tht if thts wat he wants.. FINE!
so i knew hidayah & the rest wanted to go with amir so i decided not to be with them .. so they can be with amir..
i told them """Guys.. if Amir want to be with u all without me being with u all.. thts hes decision.. well.. my decision is.. today will be the last day i'm goingto be with u all.. on tuesday onwards.. i'm nt going to be with u.. we wont be friends anymore until this problem is solved..""
then Hidayah & Nina say "" CASSANDRA!! Y?? just ignore him.. after a few days or weeks he will surely be friends with you..""
then i say "" its ok.. i chose this decision so u & ur bestfriend can be together again.. we can still be besties but only in msn & sms.. so sorry sistas!""
then i left.. at home i cried & cried..
then i told my mom wat happened.. she gave me some advice but its the same..
alah.. klah... i gtg,,.. bye
-cj
Sorry i've nt been updating my blog..
i'm in a bad mood lah & more problems are apearing AGAIN.. then tear drops keep droping..
well on Tuesday we had our prelim oral, after that i asked [insert name here] for something lah..
AARRHH!! FORGET IT!! I'M NOT TELLING THE STORY..
THEN on Wednesday.. the boy i have feelings for.. likes my bestfriend..
i really wanted to cry but i know my bestfriend will be angry if i cry just because of tht..
so i tried to keep all the tear drops 1st..
then when i came back home all the tears came out..
this was my mistake..
i already moved on without him in my life but when he told me that he also still have feelings for.. my emotions for him came back too.. but after a few days later.. no more.. we went through our separate ways..
i don't think we're still friends.. now.. we are like ghost infront of each other..
we're not talking / looking / smiling / being friends with each other any more..
then on thursday.. Same thing happen..
then after school i had to talk to Rauff and Fadhilah on the phone.. like a messager but i'd talk to rauff longer..
had to talk to him abt Huda [Not the ex yps].. and OMG,, so many promises i need to do..
then on friday..
we wore red & white clothes but me & fadhilah need to wear uniform 1st because we were going to do flag raising...
after the celebration..
me, nina & Hidayah were planning to go to Yishun Park..but unfortunatly nina invited amir.. but he said
"""If cassandra go.. i won't go..
If cassandra won't go.. i will go """
i was so pissed off siol..
Did i do anything wrong? i didnt right..WTF!
so i told hidayah & nina tht if thts wat he wants.. FINE!
so i knew hidayah & the rest wanted to go with amir so i decided not to be with them .. so they can be with amir..
i told them """Guys.. if Amir want to be with u all without me being with u all.. thts hes decision.. well.. my decision is.. today will be the last day i'm goingto be with u all.. on tuesday onwards.. i'm nt going to be with u.. we wont be friends anymore until this problem is solved..""
then Hidayah & Nina say "" CASSANDRA!! Y?? just ignore him.. after a few days or weeks he will surely be friends with you..""
then i say "" its ok.. i chose this decision so u & ur bestfriend can be together again.. we can still be besties but only in msn & sms.. so sorry sistas!""
then i left.. at home i cried & cried..
then i told my mom wat happened.. she gave me some advice but its the same..
alah.. klah... i gtg,,.. bye
-cj